Four days at Desaru, Malaysia Beach Resort Chalet. Saw Georgina, Meifen, Ama and some of the rest band members, at the checkpoint. How cool huh. Was so surprised to see them, I cant help but to run up to them and give them a tight huggg. Yea
So, I believe that after every Church Camp, its no doubt that God has done something to our hearts. Well, this Camp helped me realise the passion I had, towards the lost. Seeing someone struggle through life's tough decisions, I cant help but to keep it as if a burden of my own. Its kinda weird actually.
Fears of being alone, Fears of people not loving me, Fears of not being able to accomplish God's promises, I know that all these are all gone. No doubt I'll be facing far more tragic stuff on my way, soon. But I know, God knows that Im strong enough to overcome, He'll provide.
God has given me a bunch of good friends, I regretted not really tresuring them at first. Now that God has reminded me, I'll keep it to the very last moment. My leaders, My parents, My peers, I have to respect. I have to lift them up.
I know very well myself, I can guard my heart good. 16yrs of singlehood has been really hard to maintain. Temptation comes. But Im proud to say, Im single till now. 16yrs. I told God, I want my very first relationship, to last to the very end. Till the time when church bells will ring, white doves fluttering, white roses shattered. He stands, I stand at the very front, making the very first pledge together.
Like I said, Temptations comes. This is when the sermon on Purity hits. I knew I have to wash away those thoughts. He forgave.
I had fun at Camp.
Then again, something hit me hard once more. MAN GOES TO NS. 16dec, just another one more day to go. No time to spend with him already I guess. I have dance all day tomorrow, and after, Ive to head down to Net, to have caroling. I guess its really's God's plan then. I dont really think I can take it, really.
The crashing waves, Swiveling to form a perfect circle. White foam. Beautiful sky. Beautiful blue. How can it be. What do you mean?
